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Carbon monoxide suicideCarbon monoxide suicide takes its infamous place as one of the more recognized ways of committing suicide. Its use has been shown in a number of movies. Suicide by carbon monoxide is chosen because the toxic gas is "non-violent", has no taste, no smell, is non irritating, and can easily be accessed - usually by way of vehicle exhaust or gas oven. Compared to other methods of suicide, death by carbon monoxide may seem like a physically clean way to leave life behind. However, behind each suicide attempt is an amount mental and emotional distress than cannot be described. There is no way to know the circumstances each victim experiences as they come to the point where they are willing to take their life. All suicide attempts can be seen as a cry for help and a very real effort to end personal suffering - even at the cost of one's life. Each year there are several million attempted suicides of all kinds worldwide. A relatively small percentage of attempted suicides result in death, the majority do not. The United States, with under 5% of the worlds population, averages 750,000 suicide attempts and 32,000 suicides a year. Most attempted suicides are aborted, thwarted or go awry, in many cases leaving the victim [seriously] injured and physically harmed. Injured carbon monoxide suicide survivors are a unique kind of survivor. If they are to begin a new life they must overcome two obstacles, a potentially serious carbon monoxide recovery as well as the conditions that lead them to attempt carbon monoxide suicide. As different as these two obstacles may seem, they may in fact be more related than they appear. For every suicide attempt there is an individual with their own set of conditions and circumstances. What they usually have in common is that they can no longer bare to endure the way they feel. All to often depression, despair, and the emotions that lead to suicide are viewed as being psychological in origin. There is no shortage of advice like "give your head a shake...", "just snap out of it...", "appreciate what you've got...", and "get on with your life...". However, it is [slowly] becoming more known that the dark world of depression and feelings that lead to suicide can come from a brain that is not functioning properly. Physical injury, toxicity, as well as emotional stress/trauma can seriously affect healthy brain functioning. A healthy brain creates a healthy life. The connection between the two is much more significant than most people realize. There are also far more things than can affect healthy brain functioning than most people realize. One or more seemly minor bangs to the head, one or more concussions, psychological trauma, toxicity, intense stress, prolonged periods of stress, or a nutritionally lacking diet can add up to a brain that is unable to function in a healthy balanced way. Several of these "incidents" layered on top of one another can [seriously] impact healthy brain functioning and a persons life. Tragically, this is not widely known. Usually the person contemplating suicide (as well as those close to them) are not aware that their very thoughts, feelings and behavior are being [heavily] influenced and controlled by an "unhappy brain." Many with deep depression and the emotions that lead to suicide carry a heavy psychological burden. They feel they are "messed up", "broken" and can no longer endure when in fact their brain is not functioning properly. Few people understand just how significantly healthy brain functioning can be impacted by life's "incidents". Many problems labelled psychological in origin may actually be brain functioning issues. For carbon monoxide suicide attempt survivorsInformation for suicide attempt suvivors and their families Survivors of suicide fact sheet Change your brain, change your lifeChange your brain, change your life Support healthy brain function
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The first time was halted by a chance encounter with a homeless person. I told this person how to go on with their life. I walked away thinking I couldn't do that to myself if I knew how to keep living. The month before, the person I'd just begun dating, who moved back to the states to be with me, got hit by a car and was made invalid for "a year". 1 month prior to that, I had my heart broken for the final time by a long-time love.
Now we are in summer, where I got headbutted by a roommate who was in love with me and couldn't have me, and I am quite sure I got some brain damage from it. Early 2011 winter/spring I spent at my parent's house attending outpatient rehab therapy, which was ineffective seeing as how I am on about 6 or 7 drugs today. The reason I went home was because of a very long suicide attempt by dehydration and starvation. I was doing that because the damage I did to my social and emotional life from 2009-2010 was just too much.
Now?? My cousin is dead, he brought himself to it. And while all this has caused a distraction, having to travel, go to the funeral, come back to work.....I just want to go now. I just want to go. I'm tired and I wanna go.
Two years ago on New Years day I lost my 10 year old son due to a medical problem, he died in my arms at home. Our marriage has deteriorated since then as she blames me for his death. You see i had a doctor appointment a week prior to his death and she blames me for not having our appointments switched. I didn't even think that was possible. She is still living with me and telling me how worthless I am everyday and is always talking about this new guy she met over the internet that will provide for her more than I ever could. She yells at me all the time with my 15 year old right there all the time and he believes she is telling the truth. He thinks I killed his brother as well.
I have failed in everything I've ever done in life and this is more than I can take. My mental well being has been lost for two years now. All I do anymore is sit and stare listening to the constant yelling. I'm done... I just can't take anything any longer. Only one thing left to do to escape it.
Goodbye ! nice to know ya!
Goodbye ! nice to know ya!
Goodbye ! nice to know ya!
Goodbye ! nice to know ya!
Goodbye ! nice to know ya!
Goodbye ! nice to know ya!
To those who believe in god, do you not remember, "judge not, lest ye be judged"? After I leave this world by my own hand, if there is a god, he would be judging me for deciding to escape the pain that, for years, I fervently prayed that god would help alleviate for me, and never did.
Unemployed for 3 years. Wife tells me she is sick of me and always threatening to leave. Kids have all grown and moved far away.
nothing more to add. nothing left to gain. no places left I want to see or experiences I long for.
so far I just don't have the guts to do the deed.
You get to a point where things don't make you mad any more and things that should make you glad really don't any longer. I don't even care if i see my grandkids (if I could ever get close enough, remember the kids all live far away)
The only thing that keeps me hear REALLY is that I am afraid that if I don't die of old age...I will have to come back to this spinning ball of dirt and live yet again.
Go figure
and finish you off anyone no?
Very little on the pain and suffering of the one attempting suicide and almost all on the resultant discomfort of the family and survivors of the suicide. Also a lot of “he should have talked to us or mentioned something”. He probably tried to, but no one wanted to listen, no one cared. Something interesting was on reality TV at the time or, like most, it was inconvenient to get involved with someone else’s problems. Quit moaning about how the dead one caused you some inconvenience or discomfort. If any of you had really cared, you would have made an effort to do something then, or would be doing something now other than moaning about your tragic selves.
If one way out is to end it so be it. This is also about freedom of speech.
Medicines for depression do not always work. Holiday depressive syndrome has not really made psychiatric head lines. These psy clinics can afford medications but others cannot.
God bless freedom of speech - whether verbal or a personal choice to end it. Ciao for now.
6 hours later in the morning i was found by surfers who then contacted the emergency department, when i was admitted to hospital i had a cohb level of 34&0x37;. I dont know how i survived really it was just pure luck. reading your site has opened my mind as to what effects such a stupid thing has had on my life since, i was 19 then, 21 now, and although I can still learn things and complete my apprenteship papers, ive noticed Im a much angryer and easily confused person than i used to be, and reality seems almost like a dream these days.
I understand what these guys have gone though and would not wish it upon anybody. If youre feeling as though life cannot get better and you want to die do not consider this option, consolodate with friends or family and tell them whats on your mind. CO poisoning is not the answer to your problems, if you survive it will just create more, and they will be with you for the rest of your life. I push people away in my life without knowing, I forget meetings with friends and even my girlfriend, I get preoccupied with things and ignore everybody, without even realising im doing it.
To the CO survivors out there, I know what its like guys, best thing we can all do is realise the effects and do our best to change them so we can live a normal life. Cheers - Jamie Lennon, 21, New Zealand, Occupation: Apprentice Mechanic and Musician.
We found him unconscious. He was in a coma for two months and has never recovered properly. He has so many health problems now. It's like parkinsons only worse. What can we expect?